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1. one more day, then off to Paris
2. yesterday was the wrap up day. had our crit and had a final pot luck at girl's house. almost everybody showed up including Ellen's family. As usual, I cooked a pasta dish. Ellen could 'drink', Jim was hilarious, Alyssa was on the roll, Mason and Cole are always adorable, everybody playing 'Euros' and I had a best birthday party ever. 
3. So I was chilling on the balcony with Kelsey, Nikki came around and she wanted to close the balcony door a little because 'it's getting cold', little do I know, that was the start. As I was talking to Kelsey, I felt the light turning off behind me and the whole apartment goes dark. Then Nikki and Lauren hollering at me to come inside of the apartment and they actually made a birthday cake for me. I couldn't believe what I was seeing but there it was, my birthday cake and people around me to celebrate it. Yeah, my birthday is like months away but that didn't matter. They huddled up candles from the house and Nutella is like my favorite thing ever so they made a frosting out of Nutella. Everybody in the house sang 'Happy Birthday' to me. I couldn't help myself from crying. Cake was so delicious, it was perfect! Every time I bite down on my cake, I was seriously about to cry but crying while eating is not good, that's going to upset your stomach.  I never had people done that for me, it was really overwhelming. Nevertheless, a good overwhelming!  I didn't even expect it either. It was just, I don't know...I can't describe it in words. I felt so much love and really, made me realize that I'm not that lonely, I don't have to be. My life doesn't suck and I mean it. I'm being loved and I always have been. 
4. Serrah, you don't ask a 4th grader if he wants to get a tattoo when he grows up. That was funny, though. You don't even want to get one for yourself!!!! LOL. 
5. Thanks everybody. Thank you so much.