few thoughts 120808

1. It's over now. I'm leaving tomorrow. I'll wonder more. Yes.
2. Lot of thoughts are going through my head. Having to travel all by myself, starting tomorrow is exciting and also seems little daunting at the same time. I know I'll do just fine and enjoy some French light while I'm there. I'm eating only crepes while I'm there. Also getting Saint-Germain soccer scarf while I'm there as well. I don't know what to expect when I go there. I just want to walk around and take pictures, that's really all I want to do. Maybe I might run into somebody, maybe I might see something that no one else have seen before but most importantly, I just want to put myself out there and see what happens. Also, I really want to eat crepes...that's actually why I am going to Paris. I really don't care about Louvre, I'm just in it for crepes, no I'm kidding.
3. Oh, straight Holga. No digital, no 35mm. Just Holga. Straight up.
4. I've been hurt, I've been happy, I've been sad, I've been healed while I was here and I met some most beautiful people at the same time. I know I will see most of them when I go back but then, we'll all have our lives back together and it won't be like this. I don't feel sad about that. I know I'm blessed to have this trip, it couldn't turn out better than this. I know few things about me now that I can make some pretty honest art, that I can make people feel happy, that I can love myself for who I am, that my scars on my skin and in my heart makes me even more beautiful, that I can put up a smile or two in most genuine way possible. I am letting go of my past because what I see front of me is too beautiful. I'm not afraid anymore. I know what I can bring now. I know I'm not perfect and I don't have to be so damn perfect...that's why I am great.
5. However...I am little tired, I've been sleep deprived, it's too noisy outside. Damn.
6. Less than 20 days away from going back, I really want to sleep somewhere quite.
7. For the final time in Rome, I got drunk...second time around...it was just wine. Sparkling red wine is quite delicious.