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1. Today was cleaning day of our studio and it dawned on me that in couple weeks, I will be going back home that has a clean rug, a bigger bed, my cds, my clothes and a bigger TV that I can understand the language. That made me sad because I realize that I really don't want to go back home. 
2. But then, I have people I miss so much. And everything has to go back sometimes, that's how life is. 
3. Tried to look for a soccer ticket this afternoon and since it was being our last week and all that I think people wanted to end it with a bang but problem was we didn't know where to get it. So we boldly dared to look for a ticket but we couldn't find a place. Although we found this nice opera house instead. Standing on a line for 20 somewhat minutes to find out we can't get a ticket at the opera house. Not a good look. It was a nice looking town, though. I ain't mad. 
4. Come to think about it, I never took this thing so seriously. Would I ever take this thing seriously? Probably not. I have other things around me that I need to be serious about. This can't be one. This art thing, I can't take it so serious because then, it will probably destroy me. However, I will be honest with me. That's my art, my honesty. You may not see most grand thing or most outrageous thing ever but I make sure that you will see the most sincere and honest thing. I got enough things in life that makes me feel stressful. When I'm doing this art stuff, it's the only time I get to be myself; I can't be stressful about that. No, I don't take this thing serious. I'm just trying to be honest. 
5. my final is up and running. I am excited about what people said about themselves. it will be all come out after tomorrow night. I think I might cry. 
6. I put everything on my work and left nothing behind that's why I am just waiting for the moment to come. I don't fear jack, now.