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1. Tony, Ben and I went to little photo tour this morning/afternoon. I shot pictures of protesters, birds, people at the train station, fake gladiators and balloons. We started from our aparment at Campo De Fiori to Termini which is the main and only train station in Rome that connects to just about everywhere in Italy. I personally dislike train station or airport but I like those places when I take photos, weird but that's just me. Anyway, it was a brisk afternoon with some cool breezes hitting my face. I liked it. Of course, I like when there's a time for me to take pictures. There's a sense of relief when I take photo; I become little careless and bit more happy. I don't have to think about what's around me but what I see behind that lense. It's always been my escape. It doesn't matter if I am good or not because photography is always little bit more special to me. It changed my life in a way that I can't even imagine. Anyway, I was wondering around and took bunch of pictures. It was relieving and under a crisp sun light of Rome, I felt like everything was sitting so quitely and peacefully beneath my heart. I liked it.
   
2. On the way home from our little photo tour, Tony and Ben found me a little Korean grocery store (thanks, ya'll!) and while they don't have much of stuff that I was looking for (like a bag of shrimp cracker), it was still good. I got me some potato stick snacks. They had crazy amount of ramen noodles compare to other items they had in stock. 2/3 of the store was like ramen, for real. I ain't complaning, though. It was actually pretty refreshing.
   
3. Sorry Serrah, I really like Katy Perry. Yes, she's annoying, obnoxious and a bimbo. You are probably right in every reason why she's not good. It's kinda intoxicating. If you know what I mean. It's not the first time we disagreed upon something. You know it better. Yes, me and Ben are going to the show. We'll bust our asses to get to that show.
   
4. I rather take a good photo of found objects than a crappy photo of a set up scene at the studio.
5. I figured out why many artists are poor; many of us spend our money on booze and drugs. many of us does not have a concept of 'keeping money' by using such tools as 'GO TO FUCKING BANK AND DEPOSITE YOUR DAMN CHECKS' (or 'WHY DON'T YOU SET UP YOUR CHECKING ACCOUNT AND SAVINGS ACCOUNT?) or 'DO NOT SPEND YOUR MONEY ON DRUGS AND GO STOCK UP YOUR GROCERY'. We also don't have a single clue how time works. Many of us go to sleep at 9 in the morning and start working at 7 in the evening. You wonder why many of us are so broke as hell. Now you know. Oh, one more thing. STOP PARTYING, no one parties on Tuesdays.
   
6. Sometimes, I wonder how the hell I got to this point in a good way and a bad way.
   
7. It was just about a month and half ago that I couldn't even go to bed because I was so emotionally spent. I didn't know what to do next minute let alone next month or with my life. I was having dreams that monsters would come out or I would just wonder around some random place and got lost. I don't know what's going to happen when I go back and I have to go back. All I can say right now is that I'm feeling lot better now. I sleep well, too. I don't have those bad dreams anymore. I did dream one night couple days ago, it was rather lovely. I woke up with a delight surprise. No one knows what the future holds for each person and that goes same with me. I don't know what's going to happen tomorrow, no one knows. There are times I would helplessly rely on horoscopes but at the same time, it doesn't pan out like that, it never does. Anyway, it's been so crazy since I got here. Although I have no idea what's going to happen, I at least know now what I want to do for my future and also figuring out what I NEED to do as well. I fear all the time. I fear for lot of things but at the same time, I got a BIG ego. BIIIIIIIIIIIG EGO. Yes, I got that and I keep it with myself, I don't blast that out on the open because I don't need to. So many things are coming at me and it's really best of both worlds: good and bad. I don't mind it. I really don't. I do keep journals, anyway.
8. Earlier today after my little photo trip, I headed out to gym to break some sweat (oh, god...did I just say 'break some sweat?', I sound like a douche now). Last couple days were little tough to get myself motivated but I had to go because well, I WANTED TO GO. Other than basketball and boxing, running is probably my favorite physical activity. I could go on and on about how great running is but I manage to run 6 miles today which is like my regular regimen. It feels good when you feel like you have to push yourself to get where you want to be at physically. It really is an adrenaline rush. I also get so many thoughts organize when I am running. I am totally concentrating although it's really weird way to concentrate, I tell ya. It was a good way to wrap up my Saturday. Sweaty and gross, that's the way to be. Although, it could be still off the heezy for sheezy even if you can't find me at one-tweezy...whatever that means.
   
9. Why is Christina Aguilera is so cute all of sudden? Her target commercial > her actual music video. Def.
10. Il Genio, go pick it up. You kids back in US are missing out right now.