few thoughts 101208

1. I am growing a beard now...
2. I guess I can draw...who would've known...
3. yeah, Serrah...that girl did look like a little skank and I know that but I had to glance at her couple times, what can I say...
4. Sometimes...I feel like I am in little island all by myself. My words bounces off from the wall and comes back to me for some weird reason. It's been better since I left but I don't know what to feel sometimes about me or everything around my reality. I sometimes feel like I am pushing people away from me when I really want to draw them in. I don't know...maybe I'm trying just too damn hard but I just want people to understand who I am and this is who I am. I really don't want to be a phony and I am going to keep working towards to my goal which is to become a person who's the most honest and sincere as possible. I don't care if that means I will have to get thousand blisters on my feet, failing at many things and listening to some jackasses...I'll be that kid and I ain't letting anyone to stopping it. I don't care if I am just 'good' or 'nice' or 'sweet'...that's just who I am and if someone can't stomach that then just let it be. I ain't missing out nothing. It's probably you...
   
5. If anything that keeps me going...it's the idea of 'love'...I wanted to give up on it and I sometimes still want to give up on it but I am starting to realize that I can't give up on this anymore. Giving up on a person and giving up on love are two totally different thing. I don't care anymore, I won't give up on love anymore...
6. seeing John Legend and The Cure in Rome is awesome but see them for free? Trust me on that