few thoughts 102608

1. everything is just wonderful, thank you
2. everything is just so hot, hate you
3. yesterday was awesome, Bob cooked an insanely delicious dinner that was consisted of following: a giant steak with a salt & pepper seasoning with mushrooms, a beet salad with vinegar dressing and sauteed bell peppers. Some of the girls came over and we listened to Amos Lee and Ben Harper then watched odd selections of German cable TV and couple episodes of 'The Office', it was a good day.
   
4. couple days ago, the entire class went to the Capitoline Museum and I was astonished not only by the scale of museum but Italians' dedication towards to restore and preserving their culture. I knew about how big restoration is in Italy and especially places like Florence but I didn't really understand how big it was until I went to this museum. It was pleasantly shocking and inspiring. I asked Lucy, our lovely and amazing professor, about this and restoration is very big in Italy, more than you can imagine. They have a such a good system in terms of school and even getting all the funding for it and it really made me to think about what it means to 'own' a culture. anybody can claim how long they have been existed and what kind of cultures they have preserved over all these years but how are you going to prove it? how are you going to show generations down the road if not a thing is available for you to teach them about their identity? culture and nature are two very similar things, you simply borrow them from future generations so you can give them back in a best shape you can give them back. The museum's collection was so overwhelming and I probably will forget lot of things that I saw that day in that place but the lesson that I took away from that place will never go away...it was a humbling experience. Really made me think about my responsibility not only as an aspiring artist but as a culture respecting citizen.
   
5. I miss some serious fitteds from back home, real talk
6. whatever I do, it always starts from me. it's not that I'm being egotistical but that's just a matter of fact. nothing can be happy around me if i can't be happy about myself. although i still freaking about meeting people here and there and always over analyzing things i've been better. i've been missing lot of things back home and was emotionally spent just a little bit but i can't complain right now, i shouldn't because this is the type of opportunity that i've always wanted; an opportunity to take a time off for myself. being happy is such a hard thing to do for me but i'm getting better at it. at times, there will be a time where things from back home that would pop up and i decided to not to try so hard to forget about it even though the reason i wanted to come Rome so bad was to get rid of those thoughts and feelings within. it's those thoughts and musings that always rip me apart and i don't want to let that happen, at least when i'm here. i'm having a great time here even though things can get little tough here and there but that's just the life. i'm so blessed that i'm here right now because it's been giving me so many ideas about what i want to do with what i'm doing right now. all i'm thinking right now is to give back to those people who loves me. ever since i had my camera, i've been getting so much love from everywhere, and i need to figure out how to get back to these people. i have to give back because i've gotten so much from everybody around me. i am with great people right here that teaches me how to love this life and i have great people back home who always love me for who i am.
   
7. I want to cause a trouble so that Lamborghini Gallardo police car can pull up on me.