few thoughts 101508

1. Hello, Mrs. Russell...I loved your cookies way back when and no, I won't block you...because one, I rarely block anybody, two, I really don't know how to block a person and lastly, your daughter is a very nice person. I don't do that. hope you have a great day. Sincerely, David.  
   
2. little under the weather, little bit of homesick, it's all good though...
   
3. last couple days were little rough...not that it was devastating or whatnot but it was just little overwhelming. i wasn't really feeling it emotionally and I was wondering and thinking too much about...well, nothing. must be the autumn again...it's that time of the year. it's kinda scary for me to meet people or see people on the regular basis but i'm working on how to do it better. i need to stop overanalyze things. i really do...it's been draining just a little bit both physically and emotionally but i just want to take it one day at a time and always hope for the best on the next day...that's all I gotta do and that's all that I can do. really. 
   
4. it can get little lonely up in here though but i've been lonely even when i was in Seattle, it's a personal thing...
5. still writing like a maniac, I love it. I've been writing like this since I was in high school and my voice became lot more gentle than back then...although, i still cuss...I'm sorry, mom.
6. yesterday was Tim Roda's lecture on his work and whatnot...it was really good. although people who seen him before said it was same repertoire but to me, it was the first time and it was really good. hear him talk about his family and the history behind it then talking about his path as an 'artist' was really refreshing and it couldn't come in perfect time because i just got myself two rejection letters earlier that day and it was not a good day at all but Tim kinda made me feel better little bit. Thanks, dude. 
7. you ask me why I do this, I'll tell you exactly why..."...because I want to give back and I don't ever want to disappear..." holla at me, damnit.