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1. it's all over. almost. not just school. everything, it's all over. almost. i think.
2. I want like two more months, seriously. Then again, I want like two more years of this.
3. last night, I got drunk for the first time. there's always gotta be first time for everything, I guess. I can't believe I drank whole bottle of wine. I did. I don't know what made me to drink the whole bottle. Oh, wait...I know what it is. Anyway, 24 years streak of being sober finally ended yesterday. It was good run when lasted. I didn't blackout and I will never blackout. It doesn't feel good or bad...I was just really dizzy and got kind of cranky without saying lot of words. I guess I'm not the type who calls on random person and scream. Thank god.
4. Final project, getting really complicated by now.
5. Good thing about yesterday, though, I had a steak, a really good mashed potato and finally, green beans! Then watched 'Say Anything'. It was fun and all and yes, that's when I emptied out that bottle of wine. Truth.
6. This weekend, kinda disappointing. Not as promising as I anticipated for. Is it too much to dream about a rainbow, shooting stars, a rollercoaster, a farris wheel, rockets and confetti? I guess so.
7. I need hug. Real talk. But then, I just shake it off like I'm dancing. You know how I be.